Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Today

In the middle of a heart-felt conversation, my office mate asked me my age, and then went on to say, "you're probably 23, 24."
"Nope! I'm 30."
"No way, you look great! ..."

Although sometimes compliments could be suspect, I'll take this one for what it is.





Woke up this morning bursting into songs: Heart like Heaven, and No Higher Calling. Ending the day looking back at life as it was about this time last year - the roads and relationships that have led here. In between, and to this point, here, now, today was a good day.

[Edited]:
I almost missed it!

"You have a life that I'm jealous of... I miss the things I love..."
*Hian! These married people sef, clearly not having and eating cake. On the real tho, shouldn't this level of nostalgia worry us for the new dad?

"Been a while so I thought I'd reach out ... We should catch up one of these days"
*Not keen, and best believe this is all you. Do you, man. Not going out of my way to make the slightest thing happen.

"Just thought about u ... need to call you soon. I'll make sure you don't push me away..."
*The Good Lord put you in the Middle Belt for a reason. Don't be a Yoruba demon now.

"How are you doing Hun? I hope this message finds a smile on your face this beautiful morning"
*What is this? Who is your Hun?



Four! All four of them contacted me within the space of a week, and it hit me that a cycle (more like quadrant) must have completed today after Bamz's message came in. I actually journaled this shit down a few days ago after I got the first two reached out to me a day apart, and I must have felt the energy coming. By the time the third came, I called it Flame Season, and waited for the last character to show up, and lo and behold, it played out in real life. It happened, and I almost missed it. omg. Am I attracting something this period, putting out some kind of vibrations that's going out to them, while I'm just here being the king of my castle, contemplating dreadlocking my hair and moving to NYC? Then I like it. Better yet, I caught it :) More than happy to channel this into some useful places right now, man!




* my inner Lizzy McGuire responses.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Quotes: Rumi

 “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” - Rumi.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Exulansis

There has to be a word in some language for wanting change even though things are good. It's an undeniable feeling I have, and don't know the word that captures it.

Thought Catalog has this list of 40 Words For Emotions You’ve Felt, But Couldn’t Explain and Reader's Digest shares 11 Words That Capture Feelings You Didn’t Even Know You Had.

I'm on to something.
Reading about Midsummer, my heart skipped a beat thinking about winter. There has to be word for that one too!

Sunday, June 4, 2017

Tiny pleasure

1:23am and finally done working on this project piece I picked up at 2pm, but didn't really get into till 4-ish. A pack of Chocolate Digestives, two slices of Pastry Garden's Bailey's cake and Death by Chocolate later, my mission is accomplished. Fulfilling! Time for sleep.

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Try on all your "knives" like this

Sliding into June like:



Birthday, work anniversary, and dad's gone one year already.

Put some spotlight on the slide 
And whatever comes, comes through clear

Oshe! Summer time banger ;)

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Covfefe

May:
This month came with Cinco de Mayo, May the Fourth, the birth of a colleague's baby, finally getting out of town (the cabin fever was starting to get to me) over long weekends for quality time with family and friends and wedding parties in Atlanta and New Jersey. How lucky :)

I explored the breathtaking Storm King, mostly by tram, and made a favorite place out of it. Still on Storm King and favorites, Aziz Ansari and team did justice to the second season of Master of None. Spotlighting Storm King and parts of Italy added to my wanderlust, and ignited travel fantasies of Venice in me. In the same breath, while I was lusting after cities, an old friend was dreaming about traveling with me, and in real life, a strange woman I met at a bar on Memorial Day would tell me all about her life, her children and her Tanzanian sisters who lived in Italy.

At the job front, started out dealing with frustrations and excruciating boredom, and this past week accepted two new leadership roles. Volunteered some more in my local community and celebrated awards with high school students I mentor. Reached a 100 day streak of meditation, and the following day, ran out of hotel wifi to continue. Said yes to help when a college buddy offered to set my groceries in the fridge, and turned down invitations to participate in high profile events that held no personal value. Finished John Bradshaw's Homecoming (life changing read), wrote a ton of letters by hand and didn't mail a single one. Resolved conflicts lovingly, and turned down a couple stupid advances from confused men.

Oh yea! Can't forget this soul-shifting episode with Dr. Phil Zimbardo on the Tim Ferriss podcast: How to Not Be Evil

Overall, this was a wealthy, healthy month, however I must get back to yoga, and pick up bike riding. As June dusks in the morning, we'll look forward to welcoming variants and seizing opportunities, but tonight we close out May soaking up TED wisdom, Davido, and #Covfefe.

Monday, May 15, 2017

Press Play

Let go of your participation in frequent time travel trips to a past where you could have a chance to redo perfectly. 


What you do when you do this, you ask? 
You panic. Do you not see this? You direct your focus on keeping old events in your current pages. You pursue relevance in retrospect. In stills. You hold on to comfort zones, not wanting to have to do the work all over again. You ignore your present opportunities and gifts. You deny your present blessings. 

Even though there is no comfort here, I need you to come forth. Move on. 
Accept that today, which is the only given, you are no longer involved with each other the way you used to be. You are no longer the object of his affection, and that road has brought you here, to this place, today. 

Take your loss graciously. It takes courage, and courage you have plenty. You will evaluate where you are right now, appreciate it, and with your head held up, you will look forward. Ahead. That energy is all yours, baby. It’s your power, gather it and all of you. Purposefully channel it into your becoming. You are love. Become love. 

Now you know your pain. That soft, vulnerable place, the thought of which frightens you, and makes you unwittingly rush to protect. You are so brave, and I hold you in admiration. This one will not jail you, let it teach you. This time, you will stop fighting and surrender your ego. It's bruised, I know. Put it aside and you will be better for it. Trust me.